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Monday, November 14, 2011

Limitless


Limitless

I’m beginning to think that
Men only like the potential of me, 
Not the real me.
The real me they never care to see.
Saying, “If only you were younger, older,
Thinner, fatter, prettier, uglier,
Funnier, more serious, taller, shorter,
A blonde, a brunette, a red head, a purple head,
Bigger boobs, smaller boobs,
Into girls, not into girls,
More talkative, less talkative,
Bigger ass, smaller ass,
Blue eyed, green eyed,
More poetic, less poetic,
Drunk, sober, smarter, dumber...
If only you were these things,
Then you would deserve my love.”
What they don’t realize is that I’m looking to see
If they deserve My Love.
Men that say those things to me,
Men that think those things of me,
Those poor souls don’t stand a chance of
Even getting a glimpse.
You see
My Love is greater than theirs.
My Love has no limits,
No restrictions apply,
IT doesn’t expire after a certain date.
IT goes on forever, 
Even after they’re gone,
IT remains.
Growing and changing, yes,
Just like me, just like the edge of the sea,
But like that sea IT remains.
Strong and willful, yes,
But always plentiful,
Going beyond the horizon,
Even beyond the shores.
You see, if you would take the time to truly see,
You would easily see that
My Love is
Limitless.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Invisible Wings


Invisible Wings
Tomando vuelo con alas invisibles
I take flight with invisible wings
Cada etapa de mi Vida
Every stage of mi Life
Que el Creador revela frente a mi
That Creator sets before me
Voy caminando, despacio
I traverse, slowly
Pero hacia enfrente
But always forward
Este camino rojo, Sagrado
This Sacred red road
Con la magia que esta Vida me a dado
With the magic that this Life has granted me
Tomando mis pasos con la certeza
Taking surefooted steps
Que me llevaran a donde tengo que lleguar
That take me where I need to go
A mi destino ya destinado para mi
To a destiny that has already been destined for me
Halzo mis alas con fe y con Amor
A lift my wings with trust and Love
Y tomo vuelo hacia el horizonte
And I fly towards the horizon
Guiada por la Medicina del Lobo
Guided by Wolf Medicine
Y la Sabiduria del Buho
And the Wisdom of Owl
Hacia los caminos que quedan por traspasar
Towards paths that have yet to be traveled

Suppose


Suppose

What do you suppose I should do about my feelings for you?
Am I suppose to put them away
Put them somewhere cold and dark
In a corner abandoned
Where I can't feel them anymore
So I could forget what it was I felt for you
Am I suppose to smash them, break them up in to little pieces
Throw them out somewhere
Where I will never find them anymore
And never in my life feel them again
Am I suppose to hold them up in front of me
To remind myself that you never
Felt any of these things for me
To remind myself of the things you never did
And of the words you never said
Or do you suppose I should stuff them
Back in the shell where they came from
And hand them over to you
To remind you of all the feelings you lost
When you decided to let go of me.

Do you see me?


Do you see me?

What am I to you
What do you think of when you look at me
I'd like to know
What it is you see
Am I a paper doll
Which you dress up and dress down on a whim
And then toss in a forgotten drawer
After you tear off my limb
Am I a plastic doll
With a plastic house and a plastic bed
Your superficial plaything
A plastic body and an empty head
Am I a porcelain doll
Which you admire and put on a pedestal
Surrounded by dust, left cold and
Alone in a box made of crystal
Or do you see the womb-myn that stands before you
That bleeds like you do, thinks like you do,
And feels like you do.
Tell me, what it is you see.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Seashell


Seashell

She Keeps a Seashell
Where she hides her Love
She folds it, and
Wrings it,
Stuffs it until
The mass Enormity of Love
Fits in the Palm of her
Hand 

Sera real?


Sera real?

Esta nueva sensacion por la misma persona
Sera real? 
Todos esos pensamientos y sentimientos
Los piensas y sientes tu tambien
Mi alma gemela, lo eres tu?
Como sabre que eres el hombre que sueño
Que los sueños se convertiran en realildad?
Sientes lo que siento?
Tambien me quieres besar?
Tambien me quieres acariciar?
Amarme con esa pasion que vi al dormir?
O nadamas vez a esa amiga 
Que siempre sera como una hermana,
Que nunca sabra lo que es un beso tuyo
Los que regalas tan facilmente a todas las demas
Que nunca conocera el calor de tus caricias
Porque estas muy ocupado dandoselas a otras
Que no merecen tu atencion.
Sera real?
O... 
Nadamas estoy soñando otra vez...

Friday, October 7, 2011

Burst out like desire


Burst out like desire

Burst out like desire
For a touch from your
Hand. Manipulates
Feelings, sensuously,
Jealously making me yours,
Not realizing
I am mine alone.
Touching your hand
Envious of its power
To release the passion,
The tingling desire,
Release the pulsating fire
Mine cannot do alone.
My hand
Who writes every hour
Reveling desires
You could never fulfill.
My Hand holding desires
I must conquer alone.

Medicine Dreams


Medicine Dreams

Medicine comes to me 
As Dreams 
They fill my Self
My Soul bursting with 
Healing Power
Great enough to stop
The passing of time
The force of gravity
I hold in my hands
I pass from one dimension 
To the next
With ease 
Seeing Pasts and Futures
That few will open 
Their Hearts to
World Peace and Balance
It Exist
I saw it
With my Soul's Eye
As my mortal body rested
Gave birth to a New Mundo
In the form of a Snake
With the beauty of 
A thousand rainbows
And the Power of Creation
The Power to Heal
Our Madre 
Tierra

Broken


Broken

Disbelief rushes into my eyes
Then the pain washes over me
As the panic sets in 
As I see with horror
My heart trampled 
And tossed
Like a rag doll
Under that monstrous marvel of technology
His broken body
Laying there
Lifeless
My heart breaks
His heart stops
I run towards my broken life
Pick up his limp body
I scream agony
Pierce through heaven
With my cry
Force God to hear me
To give him back
Look down at my broken angel
Blood covers his cherub face
My angel, my love, my life
Opens his eyes and looks up at me
And breaks free from the 
Cold grip of 
Death
And stays in the
Warm arms of
His Mother.

Useless Drops


Useless Drops

I don’t know how to be here
Without you
Nothing is the same.
Hear their voices swirl around me
Happy, cheerful.
Doesn’t take away the emptiness
I feel
All alone 
In a room full of people.
My presence like a black hole
In contrast to
The sunshine you always brought.
Tears flow like a floodgate open
Useless drops 
Won’t bring you back.

Butterfly


Butterfly

Little Butterfly you came
To guide my way
Sad and sorry you didn't
Come here to stay
Came to me only for
A little while
When I feel you around
Your presence makes me smile
Strange how it is Butterfly
To miss you,
You who I never really knew
When dreams and visions swirl together
I can see your face
How I prayed for just one small embrace
Butterflies, like Angels, are so very hard to hold
But while you beat your wings around me
I will never feel cold
The ancients promise four years only
Until your spirit journey will adjourn
From the time you departed, Butterfly,
I have awaited your return
It is not yet time and already I despair
And I have lost hope
You watch from where you are
How I unnecessarily mope
When I close my eyes I still can feel your heartbeat
This humble heart stays open to you, Butterfly,
Until again we meet.
Ometeotl.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

¿Que te escribire?


¿Que te escribire?

¿Que te escribire?
Tu que no estas,
Tu que no vendras.
¿Que te escribire?
¿Deveras mereces mis palabras?
¿Mereces mi atencion?
¿Para que te doy algo que 
nunca me brindaste a mi?
No entiendo porque sigo escribiendo
Esto versos que nunca te ganaste,
Como esos besos que te di
Tampoco fueron merecidos.
Mi amor es mas grande que tu
Mas grande que lo que te puedas imaginar.
Mas de lo que alcansaste a ver 
Y que nunca veras jamas,
Porque mi amor esta esperando aquel,
Aquel hombre que si tenga la paciencia y el deseo.
El que se tome su tiempo para comprobrar
Que hay alguien en este mundo que merece 
Mis palabras,
Mis besos, y 
Mi Amor.

~Me

Once In a Blue Moon


Once In a Blue Moon

Once in a blue moon
I ran with the dinosaurs
Swam with a blind turtle
Who liked to swim backwards

Once in a blue moon
I observed three killer whales
Larger than life
Breaching through the ocean waves

Once in a blue moon
I traveled through space
Went through a black hole
And I saw the other side

Once in a blue moon
I felt the earth move
Lead others to safety
And looked out at the devastation

Once in a blue moon
I felt the ocean waters rising
Guided the children to higher ground
Then I saw it on the morning news

Once in a blue moon
I saw the earth spew fire
Inhaled the ash that filled the air
Then I saw it on prime time news

Once in a blue moon
I flew in for my own wedding
Couldn’t see a thing but the mountains 
And my non-existent husband’s face

Once in a blue moon
I took a walk through the woods
Found my medicine
Shape-shifted into a Wolf

Once in a blue moon
I was full of life
Swollen belly undulating waves
But it didn’t last

Once in a blue moon
I stopped the passing of time
Defied the laws of physics
Moved things with my mind

Once in a blue moon
I heard love fall from your lips
Came out through mine too
But I was mistaken

Once in a blue moon
I saw the truth
Was guided by owl medicine
Towards a new path to follow

~Me

Monday, October 3, 2011

To The Girl With The Thorn In Her Side - R.I.P (Rest In Power)


To The Girl With The Thorn In Her Side - R.I.P (Rest In Power)

(words borrowed from Steven Patrick Morrissey)

Gabby, there is something I wanted to tell you.  
Our frank and open conversations stopped me 
From thinking all the time so deeply, so bleakly. 
When I said that joke isn’t funny anymore, it still was.  
Sometimes I think I have forgiven Jesus for deciding 
That he wasn’t so sure the world deserved you 
But then at midnight I can’t get you out of my head.  
And if you never knew how much I really loved you, 
It’s because I never even told you but I meant to. 
Muffin, I will see you in far off places because 
I know its going to happen someday.
Rabanos forever!

P.S. Your spirit is the light that will never go out.

Grandmother Spider


Grandmother Spider
Spider, my guide
Weaver of Life
Of Thought
I find you
When I need to be reminded
Of my own Power
To Create.
I lose myself
Sometimes in the
Web of my insecurities
Get tangled
En mis Fracasos
But you're always
There to Lead me
Towards the right Road
Untangle Me
Weave a New Path
Together
Creation
Becomes Us.

~ Me

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Volando Free


Volando Free

I flew away last night
Spread my wings
Fluttered them once or twice
Y me luego, me fui.
Aveces las preocupaciones de este mundo
Pesan demasiado y me tengo que ir.
Sometimes the brightness of a great day is
Shadowed by one small event
That throws me back into the darkness
Y tengo que tomar vuelo.
Volando con mis alas de color
Vibrante como un arco iris cuando sale el sol
After the storm has passed away.
I need that release sometimes,
That freedom that I can only achieve
Cuando dejo mi cuerpo mortal
Y dejo mi espiritu volar, libre,
Como una mariposa que nadie puede atrapar.

~ Me

Mariposas


Mariposas
I miss the butterflies
Not the ones I see fluttering about
I see them all the time
Whenever I go out

I miss the butterflies
The ones I felt fluttering inside of me
Every time I saw your face, your smile
Those butterflies that no one can see

But those butterflies got away from me
When they realized they were all alone
They knew nothing would come out of
The lack of interest you have shown

Still they look for you wherever we go
Hoping, waiting that someday
They won’t be alone and that
“I felt them too” is what you’ll say

-Me

Saturday, October 1, 2011

¿Quien se atrevería?/Who would dare?

¿Quien se atrevería?

¿Quien se atrevería
A caminar al lado de aquella mujer
Esa mujer que a diario habla con el Sol
Y conversa con la Luna,
Que le canta al Mar
Y escucha los consejos de las Olas?

¿Quien se atrevería
A estar a su lado
Cuando les cuenta a los pájaros su último sueño
O su última pesadilla,
Cuando le da los buenos días al gato callejero
Y las buenas tardes a los cuervos ruidosos?

¿Quien se atrevería
A pasar la tarde junto a ella
En ese completo, pesado, impenetrable silencio
Por horas y horas
Nada mas para ser repentinamente sorprendido
Por ese cacareo que es su risa,
Que llega sin provocación ni razón?

¿Quien se atrevería
A pasar las noches
Junto aquella mujer que
Oye las voces de los espíritus
En las hojas de los árboles y
En ese viento suave que acaricia su piel? 

¿Quien se atrevería
A estar con ella en la madrugada,
Agotado por satisfacer su apetito carnal insaciable
Y ser repentinamente despertado por su llanto,
Ella llena de sudor frío, temblando,
Y sin poder explicarte porque esta así?

¿Quien se atrevería
A escuchar esos murmullos indistinguibles
Día y Noche,
Cuando ella le reza al Creador,
A la Madre Tierra,
Al Búho en la ventana,
Los murmullos de aquella curandera
Que nunca lo fue,
Que nunca supo controlar su magia
Vaga y perdida sin saber porque?

¿Quien se atrevería
A compartir su corazón
Con aquella loca que
Aúlla con los lobos,
Canta con las gaviotas,
Y llora con la lluvia,
Con aquel complejo que se atreve
A caminar con el resto de la humanidad
Y hacerse pasar por uno de ellos?

¿Quien se atrevería
A entregar su vida entera
A la inútil misión de comprenderla
Y a la certeza de tener su amor?


Who would dare?

Who would dare
To walk next to that woman
That woman who everyday talks to the Sun
And converses with the Moon
Who sings to the Ocean
And listens to the advice of the Waves?

Who would dare
To be at her side
When she tells the birds about her latest dream
Or her latest nightmare,
When she greets the alley cat
And bids the noisy crows a good afternoon?

Who would dare
To spend the afternoon next to her
In that complete, heavy, impenetrable silence
For hour upon hour
Only to be suddenly startled
By that cackle of a laugh
That comes unprovoked and without reason?

Who would dare
Spend their evenings
Next to that woman that
Hears the voices of the spirits
In the leaves of the trees and 
In the soft breeze that caresses her skin?

Who would dare
To be with her in the middle of the night,
To be exhausted from satisfying that insatiable carnal appetite,
To be suddenly awakened by her cries,
She, covered in cold sweat, trembling,
And unable to tell you why?

Who would dare
To listen to that unintelligible muttering
Day and Night
As she prays to Creator
To Mother Earth
To the Owl at the window
The muttering of that curandera
Who never came to be
Who never learned to control her magic
Wandering and lost without knowing why?

Who would dare
Share his heart
With that crazy woman that
Howls with the wolves
Sings with the gulls
And cries with the rain
With that complexity that dares
To walk with the rest of humanity
And pass her self off as one of them?

Who would dare
To give their entire life
To the futile task of understanding her
And the certainty of having her love?


~ Me

Space for Poetry

When I was in middle and high school, for a long time I thought I would make my living writing poems.  I imagined myself living in Paris or London sitting at cafes (or my balcony) writing furiously as tourists passed by.  Well, life took many, many turns and I ended up teaching instead in Los Angeles. Although I love my career, I do feel I need an outlet where I can bring back the passion for poetry I had as a kid.  I'm starting this blog so I can publish my poetry somewhere, even though it won't pay my bills as I once imagined, at least it will be out there somewhere.  I will probably also post poems and lyrics of others that I enjoy.  I will give them full credit, of course.  I hope those of you that stumble upon this blog enjoy the poetry.

"Y fue a esa edad...Llego la poesia a buscarme" -Pablo Neruda